Why oh WHY do I have to miss you...

Why?! This is all so stupid that I still miss him! I mean we haven't called each other in 30 days now and yet everytime my cell phone rings I still hope that it's him. Which is so dumb because why would he call me?

And I still worry about him. I worry when he drives down here. I worry when he has to work long hard days. I feel bad for him when he has a bad day. I just want him to be happy. I think about him everyday, which again is so stupid because he prob doesn't think about me.

And I hate that when we talk I am a bit bitchy to him sometimes...because I don't want to be, but some of the things he tells me kills me. I wish he knew...not that it would make him care. I hope that in the end we can be friends...I just want him to be happy.
That's all...